Kŭmanhaseyo! Kwanshim ŏpsŏyo!

Hmm... by now, you'd think that I've already died or something. No, I'm still hanging on. I suppose I am supposed to be happy now, since I received a little validation of my value to the department. My HOD actually thinks that I am the "most competent" (in terms of familiarity with the job) among all the new buyers since I've had experience with the company. I'm supposed to puff up like Bloat now, but I was deflated almost immediately by the onslaught of duties that I have been working on for the past weeks. Btw, this will probably last until all the other new buyers catch up and stabilize.

Thanks to one delinquent supplier, I have poop on my hands on a daily basis, and this poop ain't easy to clean up. From now till we find an alternative supplier to replace this delinquent fella, we're short of materials for production and everyday is focused on making sure we have enough to feed those damn SMT machines down in the production line to make enough PCB boards to keep HP happy.

It's not easy to do your own job when dozens of people keep coming up to you and giving you new tasks. All because I'm the "most competent", I have to "pao kah liao". Lotsa seniors tend to hand me their tasks because the new girls under them would take too long to finish and they have trouble finish their own work. As if I don't have the same problem. Being fluffy and perky does not mean one has nothing to do. I have to keep up that kinda attitude or I'll sink. I try to be active and perky to keep my spirit up. But these people are just trying to sink me, one task at a time. Everything needs to be done ASAP. I can't say no cos JanJan once gave the green light to hand me any kind of work associated to the kind of stuff I do on a daily basis.

I wish I could be like Chicken Little and say "Today is a new day!". I do try to say "This is a new week.", but each week rarely gets better. It either stays the same or gets worse. I used to be able to finish my work by the time I go home everyday. Now I always something to continue tomorrow, or something I cannot settle today. Then, I'll go home and think about it all night. I try to bring home work, but I rarely have the time to finish it cos I do have to eat, shower, rest and sleep. I will not forgo my sleep for work. Doesn't help me or the company if I go to work and feel like a zombie. I kinda felt like one today. I left work before 7pm today. Couldn't take it....

So what do I do now? Since I worked on a day off during the Deeparaya holidays, Materials Manager, Mr.9-Stars seemed rather impressed with me (he's the grumpy Singh who interviewed me). Now that I'm slowly sinking, I really hope I don't make noticeable mistakes and lose the credibility I have gained in the eyes of my superiors and co-workers. Need to push-hard now. Even though I am aiming to leave the company, I don't wanna leave with the impression of being a ball of fluff.

In the end, it's just a job, all in a day's work. I used to wonder how JanJan can eat, sleep and breathe work. I am beginning to catch her germs now. I hope I don't get it all. I just need a germ or two to give me drive. I don't want to be a slave to the company. Hence this post's title "Stop hassling me! I'm not interested!". Not interested in being the best. I just want to be good. Being the best doesn't give me an increment. Being the best and getting gastric and having bad health is not going to get me pity or anyone apologising for the work which caused my illnesses. I just want to do my job. I don't need to be a hero.

P.S. I think I'm starting to write like a bore... waaa!! :"(