Rainy day...

Credits for photo to: http://godgirl.wordpress.com/

I've never really walked under torrents of rain before, and today I did... it was a liberating experience, other than the fact that I was worried that my mobile phone would get soaked :D

You'll feel like you didn't have a single care in the world, and allow the rain to wash away all the tension you had inside you. Try it someday...

Credits for photo to: http://www.davidde.com/

Why did you call?

I've heard many sad songs lately, but this one is the best. It almost made me tear... if I were alone in my room when I watched it, I'd be bawling... the lyrics are so sad and poignant... it's a simple love song, with such a painful tone to it. Reminds me of the heartbreaking loves I've been through...

The singer is Shin Hye Sung from the band Shinhwa. This will be his 3rd solo album.



Not subbed by my favourite subber, but it'll do. Thanks to nglkt for subbing :D

For those who can read Chinese, I think the Chinese translations would be even better :D

Insomnia...

No... I do not have insomnia... Wheesung and Craig David does :D

I was quite impressed with Wheesung's version. I actually preferred the video because it really showed him, as opposed to Craig David's, where he kept hiding behind the shadows and let the girl have more than half the video to herself... Is it cos he got fatter and he's shy? :D If only Wheesung had chosen a hotter girl to 'paw' in his video :P

The song is quite catchy... I love the bridge and the chorus. I don't like the starting of the 2nd half cos they mangled it with the big mouthful of lyrics and ruined the fluidity of the song. Otherwise... it would've been a song I could sing along to... now I can only mumble all the verses... Grrr... But on the other hand... I am impressed with the lyrics of the Korean version. Simply adore them. I find them more meaningful than the English version... which sounds like it's been done before...

Watch both videos and decide...

Wheesung's



Thanks to coolsmurf again for posting. I try to get his videos up here cos he manages to get decent subs and he doesn't plaster the video with his signature like some other ppl :P

P.S. This is the first Wheesung song I bothered to download and listen to :D

Craig David's

BAD WOMAN!!!

This is the anthem of the year for dumpees... if you're a girl, change the lyrics to 'bad man' :P

Pig-ology

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name followed by "ology"

IF I TAGGED YOU, PLEASE PUT THIS UP ON YOUR PAGE AS A NOTE AND TAG SOME OTHER PEOPLE!

FOOD-OLOGY

What is your salad dressing of choice?
Mayo

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Dunno… don’t we all sit in restaurants? I hate standing when I’m eating…

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Satay… pork satay

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Ham, bacon, mushrooms, lots and lots of cheese!!!

What do you like to put on your toast?
Butter or peanut butter

TECHNOLOGY

How many television sets are in your house?
3 in Singapore, 4 in Melaka (take note, Danie)

What color of cell phone do you have?
Green, white, blue, black… it’s colorful!!!

BIOLOGY

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right…

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Booger? Plaque on my teeth?

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A stool (small chair… not poop)

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
Why would that happen to me? Because I talked too much?

BULLCRAPOLOGY

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
I generally hate surprises, but this is one thing I’d not wanna know. Even though I’d love to be able to say goodbye to all the people I love… so I treat each day like my last :)

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
No idea… Pig? Zhu Yi? Hehehe! Maybe not… my name is pretty cool… unlike some country bumpkin’s… :D

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
No... I’d be suffering for weeks after…

DUMBOLOGY

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
2?

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
Erm… 2 Chinese New Years ago… for running a red light :D

Last person you talked to?
Maik

Last person you hugged?
My daddy (Danie… take note… Eve wasn’t the last one :P)

FAVORITOLOGY

Season?
Windy summer

Holiday?
Any long holiday is appreciated

Day of the week?
Saturday

Month?
December

CURRENTOLOGY

Missing someone?
Yep :(

Mood?
Bored

What are you listening to?
Black Beat

Watching?
My laptop screen

Worrying about?
If Pan Kuma and Sybilla will botch up the assassination my plan >:D

RANDOMOLOGY

First place you went today?
Toilet

What's the last movie you saw?
Bolt

Do you smile often?
I try to... I think I smile weird… blame the braces… still learning to smile :P

QUESTIONS

1)Do you always answer your phone?
Yes… unless I didn’t hear it ring

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Maxis? Damn it!!! Stop sending promotional SMSes at odd hours!!!

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Hazel…

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
What’s Sonic?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
Yessum…

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yeah... I once had 10 puffer fish… most of them died within the day cos they idiot aquarium didn’t tell me that they needed a pump in the tank. I love puffer fish :) Their little fins are so adorable

7) Favorite Christmas song?
Can’t remember…

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
Success and happiness in life

9) Can you do push ups?
May need some help

10) Can you do a chin up?
Don’t think so… my arms would break first

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
Nervous

12) Do you have any saved texts?
Yes… I should probably delete them after I read them… but I always forget

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
NO!!! Choi… choi… choi…

14) Do you have an accent?
My hair is nicely accented by red highlights :D

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Graze by Shinee… painful song…

16) Plans tonight?
Tummy slimming treatment

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes… but I’ve bounced back :D

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Wet wipes, Sesame Street tissue, lottery ticket

19) Have you ever been given roses?
Yes... of course!!! :P

20) Current worrry?
I may never find my path in life

21) Current hate right now?
The need to depend on people

22) Met someone who changed your life?
Yes… a few actually…

23) How did you bring in the New Year!
How do you bring it in? Doesn’t it just come?

24) What song represents you?
Bad Woman by FT Island or This Woman by Lee Soo Young

25) Name three people who might complete this?
Felicia, Kristi, Xing

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
Falling asleep

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I wanna go back to sleep

Not feeling creative... pardon the generic answers :P

Hazel Eyes...

Not sure of her eye color yet... but I bet it will will be a beautiful one since her mummy already has beautiful eyes :)



Welcome Hazel! You're the closest thing I have to my own daughter now... I'm gonna shower you with lots of love and presents from now on... *HUGS*

Honey!!!

I love this song by KARA, but I was really disappointed by the quality of the MV used to promote it. The footage was jumping all over the place, and there was no focus at all. So what if they were dolled up so nicely... it was a waste :(



Thanks to coolsmurf for posting the vid!

Go Away...

I'm so sad... Fly to the Sky is finally disbanding. Decennium would be their last album together T_T Their song for their comeback/farewell is aptly titled Go Away / Goodbye You. Enjoy the MV and their live performance... Will put up a better one if it appears on YouTube. Do buy their last album if you can... as a final support to the band...

I'm gonna go wallow now... *sobs*

Alone again...

I'm posting because I know some people are waiting for me to explain, but I really don't have the breath to explain to every single person. I may edit this later, because I feel that I might have missed out some stuff or explained some things wrongly. But for now, this is what I have to say.

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I’ve always hated walking alone… eating alone… doing anything alone. When he came along, I thought that my life was set. As long as I didn’t have to walk alone, eat alone or live a life alone, we’d be fine. But I guess there are some things you need to learn before you can be an adult. I’ve held back all this time, and lived the life I had because I was so afraid. I was afraid of being alone; having no one to go to when I needed love and support. Don’t ask me “What about your family?” The love and support from your family is different. It’s not the same as the love and support coming from a person who loves you. If you think your family would love you unconditionally, wait till you meet someone who loves you more than your family does.

He is such a person. I’ve always felt he loved me more than anyone did, other than my Dad. But it wasn’t just love that was important. It was how he understood what I wanted and needed. It irked me that he never saw the small things I needed, but it touched me whenever he understood the things that mean a lot to me. No relationship is perfect, but maybe mine was almost perfect. So why did I have to leave?

Maybe it’s been too long. I no longer know what I want out of the relationship, other than a person to come home to at night, to care for me when I’m sick, to support me when I needed words of encouragement and a hug, and to hold me when I cry.

I just decided that I need to learn to stand alone. For years, even before I met him, I have been reliant on those who would allow me to rely on them. It took me all this time to decide because I was so afraid of being alone, and didn’t want the hassle of going through a tedious separation. I won’t say break up. We were the closest thing to being married. Leaving each other was as big a production as a divorce. It would’ve been so much easier if we’d just gotten married and just continue with our lives, but I wasn’t contented. I want to change... I want to be a stronger and better person...

Here’s where everyone calls me an ungrateful bitch, and how stupid I am for throwing away the best thing in my life. Who would love me that much? Who would do everything for me like he did? Who would promise to take care of me for life? I’ve thought about all these questions… long before this… back then, I was afraid, but now I’ve decided that I want to live my life. I don’t want to be held back because I’m afraid to move forward, alone. It may sound mostly selfish on my part, but I also hope that by doing this, he can start focusing on his life, and what he wants and needs to do for himself. I don’t want him to keep planning his life around me, and I want my life to stop revolving around him. Of course that’s what you do when you’re a couple, but at this moment, I don’t see a future other than us keep dancing around each other.

Of course I’m still afraid. I’m afraid that I would wake up when I’m in my late 30s and realize that I’m unloved and unwanted. But then I wonder, is that worse than committing to something I might regret 10 years later, and having to live with it for the rest of my life? I’ll take my chance now, when I still have some time left.

I've definitely learnt a great deal from being with him. I’m not walking away with nothing. I know now how it feels to know that you can put your life in someone’s hands. I know how secure it feels to know that this person will love and accept you no matter what you become or look like 30-40 years down the road. I may never be able to do this with another person in the future, but if there is anyone who would be able to do 50% of what he has done for me, it’s already a huge feat.

10 years from now… maybe I’ll end up with him again, maybe I’ll find someone new, maybe I’ll be alone. I just want to grow and mature in this time, and learn to take care of myself. Whoever it is who becomes my partner when that time comes… I think he would be thankful to know that I am a better person than I was, and I would be a worthy partner for him, not just a companion. Hopefully…

Superman!!!

For some reason... this song is addictive. Check out the lyrics :D Maybe I'll Romanize it later... hehe!



And one of my fave female singers, Lee Soo Young is out with a new song... This Woman.



I love the lyrics too... they're so meaningful, and reminiscent :P For elaboration, ask me personally :D