The Glitz and Glamour in Manufacturing...

Yesterday I was devastated, today I am pissed. Pissed that SM Entertainment didn't have the professionalism to send out mass mails to the "failures". Pissed that they didn't at least make a public statement on their site i.e. Congratulations to the candidates who have progressed to our 2nd audition. For those who have not received word to attend, we regret to inform you that you have not made the cut.

Why???!!! Isn't the image of Korean culture sincerity and kindness? I suppose not. Either this is an illusion they're trying to invoke for tourism purposes, or perhaps it just does not apply to the entertainment industry.

Also... if you are looking for talent within a certain age group, say so in the first place. Don't mislead people into coming for the audition when actually you intend to select only those who are below the age of 20 years. I really do think that the reason I was not picked because I was too old to be trained to be the kind of performer they have in mind. It's hard for me to admit that I am "past my prime", but at least don't waste my time!

Still, I'll continue my dance class, I am going to learn to sing properly and I will learn Korean... all for my own satisfaction. The satisfaction of knowing that I am good and though I may not be able to make a career of it, at least they are skills that I will be proud of.

As for my plans now, I may be staying in Melaka for a bit longer than planned. I have yet to find a job in Singapore which I am interested in. Furthermore, none of those for which I have applied have called me for an interview. I may be switching to my dad's company when my notice is up. At least now, with my 1 year of experience, I won't be paid a fresh grad salary... ka-ching!

The killer plus of this new job is that my superior in my current company, will be working in a department which sort of reports to the department where I will be in. How's that for a payback? She's a nice friend, but as a colleague and superior, she is damn annoying. She's always making me do stuff the long way round... sometimes I think it's the wrong way round. She may have 4 years of experience more than I did, but I don't think that I am less knowledgeable than her. I only lack knowledge in the stuff that I have never had the chance or have been assigned to do. For stuff that both she and I know, we could be on par. I suppose it's also because she is a mother. So she tends to nag and nag, can never come straight to the point and keep harping on pointless issues.

As for Singapore, I plan to get there after my sister graduates so that we can move out together. I don't think I should go stay with my aunties with the current anarchy brewing in the house and also because Geoffrey is not moving out to Singapore yet. I think I'll miss having him around too much.

I'll end my post here. Enough ranting for today. I'll be in Muar for dinner tonight with Geoffrey and his colleagues. Hope it's nice...