The song is called Molla-ing... which directly translates as 'don't knowing' but I think the correct translation will be 'not knowing. Whatever...
As you can see... I am less biased these days. I don't just ogle at pretty boys, but I appreciate the music of 'bao-faced' Korean girls also ^_^ She reminds me of Sohee of Wonder Girls, whom I seriously detest :P But the song is nice... I might even try to learn it. Nyahaha!
I'm nice enough to hunt for the subbed version of the song, yet again... thank you to this kind YouTube user for subbing the vid.
So shall we give May Doni a chance? We'll see... I'll check out her album and come back to y'all.
One thing... I don't get the MV... so is she singing about her not knowing that her bf is a gay boy? I'm not homophobic... I just like to get the facts straight :P
Update: I was wondering why her name was so long, I found out that she was born in the USA. So her name was May Doni Kim (Korean style: Kim May Doni / Kim Maydoni). Doni is her middle name... ang moh style! Yo! :P So shouldn't they just call her May? :P
Lyrics for this song are posted on my lyrics blog: http://sierraskyeshoei.wordpress.com/korean-songs/
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
One more for the road...
Before I go to bed... I just found the ALL-NEW acapella version of the Hahaha Song by TVXQ! They made it sound like gospel... tee hee! *skips around*
Lovely... isn't it? :P
Lovely... isn't it? :P
Call me... Call me... [updated!]
Ah... we have yet another piece of Korean eye candy to ogle at... meet Tae Goon...
No vid with translations yet, but once I find one, I'll switch this away.
Found subbed version!
Rumour has it that he's TVXQ's Jae Joong's buddy. So since he's almost family, I'll do a short mention on him. The song is pretty catchy, and the video... 'nuff said. Jae Joong barely appeared for a total of 1 min, but it's enough for me... he's HAWT!!! Tae Goon isn't too shabby either. The only eyesore was the girl. The guys were obviously too attractive for her. What would possess her to even two-time Jae?
Whoever wrote the script did not have his head on straight. In the end... Jae shoots at Tae Goon and the girl (I can very well put her name here, but I prefer to call her 'the girl'). They don't say who got shot... Though I'm not a fan of YAOI, I'll still say that I hope Jae shot the girl, then went off with Tae Goon. Hehehe!
Speaking of pretty boys, a colleague of mine could not understand why girls were so enamored by them (not all girls, just some of us, or many of us).
Don't get me wrong... I am far from homely or wifely... what I was pointing out was that they do like 'normal' girls once in awhile... so don't lose hope, fangirls of pretty boys... our day will come!!! And we will taste their sweet fleshes... YUMM!!!
Found subbed version!
Rumour has it that he's TVXQ's Jae Joong's buddy. So since he's almost family, I'll do a short mention on him. The song is pretty catchy, and the video... 'nuff said. Jae Joong barely appeared for a total of 1 min, but it's enough for me... he's HAWT!!! Tae Goon isn't too shabby either. The only eyesore was the girl. The guys were obviously too attractive for her. What would possess her to even two-time Jae?
Whoever wrote the script did not have his head on straight. In the end... Jae shoots at Tae Goon and the girl (I can very well put her name here, but I prefer to call her 'the girl'). They don't say who got shot... Though I'm not a fan of YAOI, I'll still say that I hope Jae shot the girl, then went off with Tae Goon. Hehehe!
Speaking of pretty boys, a colleague of mine could not understand why girls were so enamored by them (not all girls, just some of us, or many of us).
He said:
Even if you got your claws on one, you won't be able to keep him. They probably date the hottest chicks all the time.
My reply:
Well... as much as a man likes eating the good food outside or even the expensive food... every so often, he would yearn for a homecooked meal. That'll be me! ^_^
His response:
You're right... hahahahahaha...
Don't get me wrong... I am far from homely or wifely... what I was pointing out was that they do like 'normal' girls once in awhile... so don't lose hope, fangirls of pretty boys... our day will come!!! And we will taste their sweet fleshes... YUMM!!!
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Are you annoyed yet?
Cos my sister is already annoyed that I replayed the song so many times when checking the lyrics. Hehehe!
As usual... tell me if I've made a mistake :P
소녀시대 - GEE
As usual... tell me if I've made a mistake :P
소녀시대 - GEE
Uh-Huh! Listen Boy!
My First Love Story (U-Uh-Huh U-Uh-Huh Yeah)
My Angel(Ha-Ah)& My Girls(Ha-Ah)
My Sunshine Uh Uh Let's Go~
neomu neomu meotjyeo
nun-i nun-i pushyeo
sumeul mot shwikesseo tteollineun Girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
Oh! Neomu pukkeureowo ch'yeoda pol su eobseo
sarange ppajyeoseo sujubeun Girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Be Be Be Be Be Be
(eotteoke hajyo) eotteok etteok hajyo
(tteollineun naneun) tteollineun naneunyo
(tugeuntugeuntugeuntugeun) tugeuntugeunkeoryeo
pamen chamdo moshirujyo
naneun naneun pabongabwayo
keudae keudae pakke moreuneun
pabo
keuraeyo keudael poneun nan
neomu panjjak panjjak nuni pushyeo
No No No No No
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo
Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Oh! Cheojeun nunbich Oh Yeah~
Oh! Choh-eun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah~
Oh! neomu neomu yeppeo mami neomu yeppeo
ch'eot nune panhaesseo kkok chip'eun Girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
neomuna tteugeowo manjil suga eobseo
sarange t'abeoryeo hukkeunhan Girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Be Be Be Be Be Be
(eojjeomyeon choh-a) eojjeomyeon choh-ayo
(sujubeun naneun) sujubeun naneunyo
(mollamollamollamolla) molla molla hamyeo
maeil keudaeman keurijyo
ch'inhanch'ingudeureun malhajyo
cheongmal neneun cheongmal mot mallyeo
pabo
hajiman keudael poneun nan
neomu panjjak panjjak nuni pushyeo
No No No No
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo
Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Oh! cheojeun nunbich Oh Yeah~
Oh! Choh-eun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah~
maldo mothaetneungeol
neomu pukkeureowo haneun nan
(U-Uh-Huh U-Uh-Huh Yeah)
yonggiga eobneungeolkka (Ha-ah)
eotteohkeya choh-eungeolkka (Ha-ah)
tugeuntugeun mam chorimyeo parabogo itneun nan
neomu panjjak panjjak nuni pushyeo (Oh~)
No No No No No (Ha!)
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo
Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee (tteollyeowa)
Oh! cheojeun nunbich Oh Yeah~
Oh! Choh-eun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah~
neomu panjjak panjjak nuni pushyeo (nuni pushyeo~)
No No No No No (No No No~)
neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun (kkamjjak kkamjjak nolran naneun)
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh (Oh Oh Oh~)
neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo
Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee (tteollyeowa)
Oh! cheojeun nunbich Oh Yeah~
Oh! Choh-eun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah~
Gee! Gee! Gee! Gee! Gee!
I've decided not to be sexist this year, so I'm gonna support more female K-Pop acts. 소녀시대(So Nyeo Shi Dae - SNSD), otherwise known as Girls Generation have released a mini album entitled Gee. I was a little skeptical when I first heard the title, but the song turned out to be pretty catchy... that is if you like cute girls. But they're song is definitely not as ditzy as KARA's Pretty Girl.
The video could definitely be better. Not enough dancing... and as usual... too much hair flying around that I can't tell who's who. And why must they always have a bridge where it's all slow... slow... slow... in a fast song? Anyhoo... cute song! A song about first love. Hmm... it's been so long since my first love... did it really feel like this song described it? Hehe!
As much as I hate to admit it, Nobody is easier to remember. Then again... SM likes complicated songs :P All the best to SNSD. But there are 9 of them... they should pose a threat at least...
I'll post romanizations later for those who wanna sing along. You can definitely try, but I find the song to be a bloody tongue twister.
The video could definitely be better. Not enough dancing... and as usual... too much hair flying around that I can't tell who's who. And why must they always have a bridge where it's all slow... slow... slow... in a fast song? Anyhoo... cute song! A song about first love. Hmm... it's been so long since my first love... did it really feel like this song described it? Hehe!
As much as I hate to admit it, Nobody is easier to remember. Then again... SM likes complicated songs :P All the best to SNSD. But there are 9 of them... they should pose a threat at least...
I'll post romanizations later for those who wanna sing along. You can definitely try, but I find the song to be a bloody tongue twister.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Another one of those...
I chanced upon another few of those weird videos advertised on the MSN Messenger... Enjoy! Might be useful...
Be Sexy Eating Messy Food
Bikini Do's And Don'ts
Be Sexy Eating Messy Food
Bikini Do's And Don'ts
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Pretty Girl... Beautiful Girl...
I usually hate girl bands, but this song just makes me feel HAPPY!!!
To all my girls... have a wonderful year ahead... and like this songs says...
You can be a pretty girl, a beautiful girl, as long as you believe it and put effort into it ^_^
To all my girls... have a wonderful year ahead... and like this songs says...
You can be a pretty girl, a beautiful girl, as long as you believe it and put effort into it ^_^
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
For those who got hooked and wanna sing along...
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
andoendaneun mameun no no no no
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
eodiseona tangdanghage keotgi
nawa makneun ose tto patch'yeojuneun malt'u
senseuitneun p'ojeu keunyang oejineun anjyo
saenghwal sangshigeun kibon shisa sangshigeun seont'aek
ta kkeunhim eobneun noryeogijyo
Girl! Pretty Girl! Pretty Girl! Chogeumdo mangseoril keot eobjyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful Girl! Beautiful! ye ye ye ye
keunyang toejin anhneun keojyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful! ye ye ye ye come on beautiful girl!
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
andoendaneun mameun no no no no
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
eodiseona tangdanghage keotgi
Girl! Pretty Girl! Pretty Girl! Chogeumdo mangseoril keot eobjyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful Girl! Beautiful! ye ye ye ye
Girl! Pretty Girl! Pretty Girl! keunyang toejin anhneun keojyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful! ye ye ye ye come on beautiful girl!
maeumeun yeppeuge p'yojeongeun sanddeuthage
harureul sijakhamyeon seo itji maraya hajyo
to nuneul kkambagimyeo saljjak miso jieumyeon
ijen modeunge wanbyeonghajyo
Girl! Pretty Girl! Pretty Girl! Nugurado doelsuitjyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful! ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye
Girl! Pretty Girl! Pretty Girl! Keunyang toejin anhneungeojyo
nan Beautiful Girl! Beautiful Girl YE~
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
andoendaneun mameun no no no no
If you wanna pretty every wanna pretty
eodiseona tangdanghage keotgi
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Just wanna feel free...
This is like the 3rd time this year I’ve OD-ed on Korean music. I had too much time over the weekend and I went on a download frenzy… I have now amassed almost all of Park Hyo Shin’s albums, just missing his 5th album. Anyone know where I can get it? And also the instrumental version for Castle of Zoltar… I need that.
Also downloaded Lee Min Woo’s 4th album, M RIZING and SS501's mini-album, U R Man. Something about SS501’s songs it just makes me wanna dance. I now understand how it feels to be in a goldfish bowl. My room in Singapore is small, but space is not an issue for me. It’s the fact that there are so many people at home who may intrude on this private activity of mine :P Sitting here in the office is a torture. My whole body is itching to dance. Just wanna run off somewhere and dance all the tension away.
Let's do some reviews... I've always liked Lee Min Woo's music, but this 4th album was really different. I don't see a very consistent style of music throughout the album, which makes it very entertaining.
1. I'm Here
2. 남자를 믿지마 (Feat. BigTone)
3. I “M” U (Feat. MightyMouth)
4. 용서해
5. 멋진 인생
6. 가면 무도회 (Feat. BigTone) (Masquerade)
7. 윙크 쇼 (Wink Show)
8. Honey 꼬시기 - Feat. 유빈 (Wonder Girls)
9. Sad Song
10. 반한 Girl
11. 나의 여백(M’s Epilogue)
12. ...없게 만들어요
13. Hot! (Feat. 손담비)...)
The opening song, I'm Here is powerful. Wink Show is reminiscent of a circus parade. Cool Life sounds like a song by the Korean Rat Pack :P Masquerade is a good song to tango to ^_^ But the sexiest song will be Hot! featuring Son Dambi of the chairdance fame :P Please wiki if you need elaboration.
SS501's Triple-S put out a surprisingly different album. This album reminds me a lot of 90s Pop. Think 911, Code Red... but I like it.
1. WANT IT
2. U R Man
3. The ONE
4. 사랑인거죠
5. Never Let You Go
6. I AM
Want It is the typical Hip Hop opening, used to make a statement. U R Man, I have already advertised in one of my last posts. It's K-pop, and the video is funny! :P I dunno what inspired the Korean mob look. My favourite songs are the remaining Never Let You Go, The ONE and I AM (in this order). Don't ask me why I like them... I have a soft spot for 90s pop... and when you throw in funny instruments, it just gets me hooked to the song :P
On a darker note, I got slammed on YouTube several times in the past few days. It’s kinda disheartening to hear from mean people. I usually reply politely and carry on doing what I like, but it gets annoying when such people keep coming back to attack me. I have never put myself out as a good dancer. I dance because I love the way the music makes me feel. I just want to move when I hear a great song. The other reason I post my videos is to share good songs with people. Naturally, I won’t just post the songs and put a photo… why not make it a little more interesting by posting a video? :P
I know for a fact that I can dance, because my teachers have told me so. Of course I can’t do splits or backflips, but I can move. I just lack discipline. If I would actually take the time and put in the effort to choreograph and practice before I record, it would definitely look better. I’ll be starting my Hip Hop lessons again after CNY. Hopefully that would help me improve.
But honestly, I love freestyling, and just dancing to whatever and whenever. I guess this is my message to the viewers. To feel free and do whatever it is that music makes you feel. What else is more precious in today’s world than freedom of expression? The feeling that you are releasing that inner energy and putting your emotions on display…
Some people paint, some people cook, some take photos, some write poetry… I just wanna dance ^_^ (and sing too!)
Also downloaded Lee Min Woo’s 4th album, M RIZING and SS501's mini-album, U R Man. Something about SS501’s songs it just makes me wanna dance. I now understand how it feels to be in a goldfish bowl. My room in Singapore is small, but space is not an issue for me. It’s the fact that there are so many people at home who may intrude on this private activity of mine :P Sitting here in the office is a torture. My whole body is itching to dance. Just wanna run off somewhere and dance all the tension away.
Let's do some reviews... I've always liked Lee Min Woo's music, but this 4th album was really different. I don't see a very consistent style of music throughout the album, which makes it very entertaining.
1. I'm Here
2. 남자를 믿지마 (Feat. BigTone)
3. I “M” U (Feat. MightyMouth)
4. 용서해
5. 멋진 인생
6. 가면 무도회 (Feat. BigTone) (Masquerade)
7. 윙크 쇼 (Wink Show)
8. Honey 꼬시기 - Feat. 유빈 (Wonder Girls)
9. Sad Song
10. 반한 Girl
11. 나의 여백(M’s Epilogue)
12. ...없게 만들어요
13. Hot! (Feat. 손담비)...)
The opening song, I'm Here is powerful. Wink Show is reminiscent of a circus parade. Cool Life sounds like a song by the Korean Rat Pack :P Masquerade is a good song to tango to ^_^ But the sexiest song will be Hot! featuring Son Dambi of the chairdance fame :P Please wiki if you need elaboration.
SS501's Triple-S put out a surprisingly different album. This album reminds me a lot of 90s Pop. Think 911, Code Red... but I like it.
1. WANT IT
2. U R Man
3. The ONE
4. 사랑인거죠
5. Never Let You Go
6. I AM
Want It is the typical Hip Hop opening, used to make a statement. U R Man, I have already advertised in one of my last posts. It's K-pop, and the video is funny! :P I dunno what inspired the Korean mob look. My favourite songs are the remaining Never Let You Go, The ONE and I AM (in this order). Don't ask me why I like them... I have a soft spot for 90s pop... and when you throw in funny instruments, it just gets me hooked to the song :P
On a darker note, I got slammed on YouTube several times in the past few days. It’s kinda disheartening to hear from mean people. I usually reply politely and carry on doing what I like, but it gets annoying when such people keep coming back to attack me. I have never put myself out as a good dancer. I dance because I love the way the music makes me feel. I just want to move when I hear a great song. The other reason I post my videos is to share good songs with people. Naturally, I won’t just post the songs and put a photo… why not make it a little more interesting by posting a video? :P
I know for a fact that I can dance, because my teachers have told me so. Of course I can’t do splits or backflips, but I can move. I just lack discipline. If I would actually take the time and put in the effort to choreograph and practice before I record, it would definitely look better. I’ll be starting my Hip Hop lessons again after CNY. Hopefully that would help me improve.
But honestly, I love freestyling, and just dancing to whatever and whenever. I guess this is my message to the viewers. To feel free and do whatever it is that music makes you feel. What else is more precious in today’s world than freedom of expression? The feeling that you are releasing that inner energy and putting your emotions on display…
Some people paint, some people cook, some take photos, some write poetry… I just wanna dance ^_^ (and sing too!)
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I will make it...
Yes... I am in obsessive mode again. I can't help it that this song is inspiring. If you have watched the live version, you would have seen the meaning of the lyrics. For those who like the song as much as I do... I have romanized the lyrics so you can sing along!!! ^_^ Please tell me if I made any mistakes...
Castle of Zoltar
Hey~ ye~
hoe saekbichkkal toshiwiro
pulgeunbich'i tteo-oreugo
robotgateun saramdeureun ppareuge kago
eoneunalbut'eo meomchwo-itdeon nae
shimjange pakhin t'ae-eobdo
alsu-eobneun him-e kkeulleo toragagoisseo
Hey~ ye~
meonjiro chaukhan nae soge
kieoge chogageul ch'a-go
pureojyeotdeon nalgeul put'yeo narabwa
I will make it
haneulpoda teo nop'i narakago ship'eo
ch'ayoreul neukkyeobwa
nae ane shining life
himideulttaen kureumwi-e olla
pararae sesangeul pwa
naega parabon igotpoda
areumdaungeon eobseulkkeol shining star
hayahke muldeun kkumkyeolsoge
zoltar-ui sangjeul poatji
eoriljeok nae sowondeuljung eotteongeol wonhae
shigani heulleoseo
eoreuni toen chigeumnan
nal chik'yeojul neol ch'akkesseo
I will make it
paramboda teo ppalli
tallyeokagoship'eo
sesangeul kachyeobwa
nalwihae shining life
himideulttaen eondeokwireul olla
tallyeoweo sesangeulbwa
naega seoitneun igotmank'eum
areumdaungeon eobseulkka shining star
I will make it
haneulpoda teo nop'i
narakagoshi'peo
cheoyureul neukkyeobwa
nae ane shining life
himideulttaen kureumwi-e olla
pararae sesangeul pwa
naega parabon igotpoda
areumdaungeon eobseulkkeol shining star
Saturday, December 27, 2008
효신 오빠!!!
His name is Park Hyo Shin. This guy is my latest obession. His voice is super duper heavenly... I can't believe I didn't know about him till now. He's had about 5 albums put out already!!
The video doesn't say much, but he does look awesome in it. This guy can also sing perfectly live!
The band that accompanies him is pretty good... HWANG PROJECT! ^_^ When I hear this song, I imagine an MV that goes like this...
A male protagonist (hot guy looking like him) runs in the snow... just runs... and at the end of the song, the female protagonist stands there, waiting for him ^_^ Yea... I have weird visions in my mind :P
The video doesn't say much, but he does look awesome in it. This guy can also sing perfectly live!
The band that accompanies him is pretty good... HWANG PROJECT! ^_^ When I hear this song, I imagine an MV that goes like this...
A male protagonist (hot guy looking like him) runs in the snow... just runs... and at the end of the song, the female protagonist stands there, waiting for him ^_^ Yea... I have weird visions in my mind :P
Friday, December 19, 2008
Triple S???
As always... I have nothing better to say... but first of all I wanna tell my best buds that I had a great time on my b'day. Thank you for taking the time to meet up and spend this dreaded day with me. I'm now a quarter of a century old T_T MWAAHHH!!!
Let's introduce Triple-S; the subgroup of SS501 which was formed because the 2 other S's (asses ^_^) were too busy. Their new song sounds very familiar to something they have done before, but for some reason... I adore it. Even if they're dressed like members of a mob for the MV. Maybe it's because of Kyu Joong ^_^
MV
LIVE
Let's introduce Triple-S; the subgroup of SS501 which was formed because the 2 other S's (asses ^_^) were too busy. Their new song sounds very familiar to something they have done before, but for some reason... I adore it. Even if they're dressed like members of a mob for the MV. Maybe it's because of Kyu Joong ^_^
MV
LIVE
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
I Like to FAN GIRL...
I found 2 adorable vids about their new album and the works...
Jae Joong was NOT as thin as I thought he was. He looked kinda small in the actual MV... but here in the making... I could really see his muscles... it's just the way I'd always liked it... yummy!!! He's not painfully thin anymore... YAY!!!
Jae Joong was NOT as thin as I thought he was. He looked kinda small in the actual MV... but here in the making... I could really see his muscles... it's just the way I'd always liked it... yummy!!! He's not painfully thin anymore... YAY!!!
Thursday, October 02, 2008
MIROTIC iz I... [the review]
Since we all know I have nothing worthwhile to do these days… let’s review every single song in MIROTIC :D I’ve not checked out the translation of each song… so I’m reviewing them solely based on how the tunes makes me feel.
01. 주문(MIROTIC)
This song sounded weird to me when I first heard it on YouTube. Nevertheless… I still danced to it :P After hearing the actual track on mp3, I realized the beat was so different. Wonder why =.= I would’ve interpreted the song differently in the dance had I heard this version first. The main thing about this song is that it grows on you. First listen… hmmm… 2nd listen… still hmm… 3rd listen… mmm hmmm… 4th listen… oooh… 5th listen… I’m hooked.
02. Wrong Number
This song is heavy. I caught a few words singing about nagging and the woman being bothersome. So basically they don’t want a this nagging woman to call anymore ^_^ The singing is okay in this song.
03. 노을...바라보다 (Picture of You)
This is their specialty… the soft lilting melody of a traditional ballad. Sadly… their harmonization don’t give a fresh take to the song. It sounds like every ballad they’ve ever sung. Don’t get me wrong… it’s a nice song… but it leaves me wanting to hear something different… other than their usual staple of traditional or R&B-ish ballads.
04. CRAZY LOVE
Oooh… this song I am crazy about. Mostly cos Electronic is in these days, and I love Electronic. The song is light and fluffy… makes you feel high and ready to dance. So you’d have guessed… I danced to this one :P It’s a bit old school and disco-ish. I can listen to it all day. Puts me in a good mood.
05. HEY!(Don't bring me down)
This song means business. Starts off with beat box sounds (wonder if they did it themselves). It’s a rockin’ song… good for power walking. Hehe! But at the same times… makes you wanna krump to it too… kekeke! Don’t be surprised if I decide to dance this one too :P
06. 넌 나의 노래
This I can translate the title… ‘You’re my song (or melody)’. Also cos they keep singing this line in the song. Another slow song… but this isn’t like the earlier. Sounds like an English song I know… can’t put my finger on it. This one might make it onto an OST for some serial drama.
07. 무지개 (Rainbow)
Hmm… starts of with an old school beat, very 80s. I actually like this one. Very danceable too. It’s light and sweet too, but not as good as Crazy Love :)
08. 낙원 (Paradise)
I hear the sitar playing. I just realized there are so many American R&B inspired tunes here. I could totally see this song in an R Kelly album. Are they straying too far from their Korean roots?
09. 악녀(Are You a Good Girl?)
I am guessing this is naughty song; another dance track. And I think the title in Korean looks more like ‘devil girl’ or ‘bad girl’ to me… hehe! My Korean is still crappy… I could be wrong. Doesn’t stir much in me, this song…
10. Flower Lady
Lalala… another sweet ballad… the title is odd. I call songs like that ‘album fillers’.
11. 잊혀진계절
This is supposed to be a special track in Version A of the album. Another traditional Korean ballad. I just found out that it means 'Forgotten Season', courtesy of Wikipedia. A Jae Joong solo... It sounds like gospel music to me =.= Sorry Jae... But it's a remake of a classic... so... :P
12. love in the Ice
This is the Korean version of one of their Japanese singles. Yes… it’s a ballad. I used to like this song… but you’ll grow tired of it. Then again… Jae Joong and Jun Su’s voices were very prominent here… so that’s one reason for me to love it.
Now that I have went through every single song… I can actually count the number of songs I actually like. About 6-7… which makes it half the album. I guess this is what always happens when you buy an album. You may only like 2 out of the 10-14 songs. You can really tell which song makes an impression on me from the length and description I can provide in it, eh? ^_^
The new album’s concept is really to show that they’ve become MEN. Hence the sexy lyrics & tunes and sexified new image (utilizing lots of chest exposure). The dancing is still the same style for me. And yes, I am biased… but I do think Yoo Chun totally missed the boat when it came to the new look. Can’t blame him though. It’s his stylists’ fault. What’s up with the hair??? It’s so unbecoming…
As usual… Jae’s hair is the best. He totally personifies the concept of the new album. Though I'm still hankering for him to put on a bit more weight so that his muscles will look more defined *drools* I’m gonna get his haircut ASAP. It kinda reminds me of my old hair. Let’s see what my stylist says. I’m beginning to get bored of my current cut… makes me look matured. I wanna be edged out… not just cos I adore Jae’s hair… I think watching ANTM is brainwashing me again. Hehe!
Please buy the album if you care about them. Proceeds will go to feeding them more rice and kimch'i so that they'll put on more weight... T_T
Btw... here's a vid of their live performance of MIROTIC...
01. 주문(MIROTIC)
This song sounded weird to me when I first heard it on YouTube. Nevertheless… I still danced to it :P After hearing the actual track on mp3, I realized the beat was so different. Wonder why =.= I would’ve interpreted the song differently in the dance had I heard this version first. The main thing about this song is that it grows on you. First listen… hmmm… 2nd listen… still hmm… 3rd listen… mmm hmmm… 4th listen… oooh… 5th listen… I’m hooked.
02. Wrong Number
This song is heavy. I caught a few words singing about nagging and the woman being bothersome. So basically they don’t want a this nagging woman to call anymore ^_^ The singing is okay in this song.
03. 노을...바라보다 (Picture of You)
This is their specialty… the soft lilting melody of a traditional ballad. Sadly… their harmonization don’t give a fresh take to the song. It sounds like every ballad they’ve ever sung. Don’t get me wrong… it’s a nice song… but it leaves me wanting to hear something different… other than their usual staple of traditional or R&B-ish ballads.
04. CRAZY LOVE
Oooh… this song I am crazy about. Mostly cos Electronic is in these days, and I love Electronic. The song is light and fluffy… makes you feel high and ready to dance. So you’d have guessed… I danced to this one :P It’s a bit old school and disco-ish. I can listen to it all day. Puts me in a good mood.
05. HEY!(Don't bring me down)
This song means business. Starts off with beat box sounds (wonder if they did it themselves). It’s a rockin’ song… good for power walking. Hehe! But at the same times… makes you wanna krump to it too… kekeke! Don’t be surprised if I decide to dance this one too :P
06. 넌 나의 노래
This I can translate the title… ‘You’re my song (or melody)’. Also cos they keep singing this line in the song. Another slow song… but this isn’t like the earlier. Sounds like an English song I know… can’t put my finger on it. This one might make it onto an OST for some serial drama.
07. 무지개 (Rainbow)
Hmm… starts of with an old school beat, very 80s. I actually like this one. Very danceable too. It’s light and sweet too, but not as good as Crazy Love :)
08. 낙원 (Paradise)
I hear the sitar playing. I just realized there are so many American R&B inspired tunes here. I could totally see this song in an R Kelly album. Are they straying too far from their Korean roots?
09. 악녀(Are You a Good Girl?)
I am guessing this is naughty song; another dance track. And I think the title in Korean looks more like ‘devil girl’ or ‘bad girl’ to me… hehe! My Korean is still crappy… I could be wrong. Doesn’t stir much in me, this song…
10. Flower Lady
Lalala… another sweet ballad… the title is odd. I call songs like that ‘album fillers’.
11. 잊혀진계절
This is supposed to be a special track in Version A of the album. Another traditional Korean ballad. I just found out that it means 'Forgotten Season', courtesy of Wikipedia. A Jae Joong solo... It sounds like gospel music to me =.= Sorry Jae... But it's a remake of a classic... so... :P
12. love in the Ice
This is the Korean version of one of their Japanese singles. Yes… it’s a ballad. I used to like this song… but you’ll grow tired of it. Then again… Jae Joong and Jun Su’s voices were very prominent here… so that’s one reason for me to love it.
Now that I have went through every single song… I can actually count the number of songs I actually like. About 6-7… which makes it half the album. I guess this is what always happens when you buy an album. You may only like 2 out of the 10-14 songs. You can really tell which song makes an impression on me from the length and description I can provide in it, eh? ^_^
The new album’s concept is really to show that they’ve become MEN. Hence the sexy lyrics & tunes and sexified new image (utilizing lots of chest exposure). The dancing is still the same style for me. And yes, I am biased… but I do think Yoo Chun totally missed the boat when it came to the new look. Can’t blame him though. It’s his stylists’ fault. What’s up with the hair??? It’s so unbecoming…
As usual… Jae’s hair is the best. He totally personifies the concept of the new album. Though I'm still hankering for him to put on a bit more weight so that his muscles will look more defined *drools* I’m gonna get his haircut ASAP. It kinda reminds me of my old hair. Let’s see what my stylist says. I’m beginning to get bored of my current cut… makes me look matured. I wanna be edged out… not just cos I adore Jae’s hair… I think watching ANTM is brainwashing me again. Hehe!
Please buy the album if you care about them. Proceeds will go to feeding them more rice and kimch'i so that they'll put on more weight... T_T
Btw... here's a vid of their live performance of MIROTIC...
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
i iz MIROTIC...
The objects of my desire are back... my TVXQ!
I'm not so crazy about the new song yet... mainly because it reminds me a little of Xiah's 'My Page', but the video is hot enough for me... my Jae has regained some muscles... but still not enough for me. EAT MORE!!!
Anyhoo... here's their new MV for the title track 주문 (Mirotic).
Their 4th album, Mirotic, is a combination of the words 'miro' which means 'maze' with the suffix 'tic'. Don't ask me why they came up with such a name... Koreans still baffle me sometimes :D The standard explanation is that it means that 'to be warped into a labyrinth'. Interestingly, some have translated Mirotic to mean 'spell'... as in a witch's spell... etc. The song is mainly about my honeys singing about how people are so into them... so true... YES... I've fallen for you, I want you, and I've got you under my skin... hehe!
I've preordered the beautiful album, version B. Comes with a DVD. I'm having 2nd thoughts... should I have gotten the photobook version? I mean... books last forever, and DVDs will die someday... hmmm... But where will I keep the book? Gaaahhh... :P Here's extra info...
Version A: CD + Photobook
01 . 주문(MIROTIC)
02 . Wrong Number
03 . 노을..바라보다
04 . CRAZY LOVE
05 . HEY!(Don't bring me down)
06 . 넌 나의 노래
07 . 무지개
08 . 낙원
09 . 악녀(Are you A Good girl?)
10 . Flower Lady
11 . 잊혀진계절
12 . love in the Ice
Version B: CD + DVD
CD
01 . 주문(MIROTIC)
02 . Wrong Number
03 . 노을..바라보다
04 . CRAZY LOVE
05 . HEY!(Don't bring me down)
06 . 넌 나의 노래
07 . 무지개
08 . 낙원
09 . 악녀(Are you A Good girl?)
10 . Flower Lady
DVD
The 4th Album Surprise Project – Directed by TVXQ! <20080830-20080831 a-nation ’08 Tokyo Story>
01 . Directed by HERO (Interviewee : U-Know)
02 . Directed by U-Know (Interviewee : MAX) ’
03 . Directed by MAX (Interviewee : Xiah) ’
04 . Directed by Xiah (Interviewee : Micky)
05 . Directed by Micky (Interviewee : HERO)
06 . Directed by TVXQ! – Talk about ‘MIROTIC’
07 . Directed by TVXQ! – Surprise Project
I'm not so crazy about the new song yet... mainly because it reminds me a little of Xiah's 'My Page', but the video is hot enough for me... my Jae has regained some muscles... but still not enough for me. EAT MORE!!!
Anyhoo... here's their new MV for the title track 주문 (Mirotic).
Their 4th album, Mirotic, is a combination of the words 'miro' which means 'maze' with the suffix 'tic'. Don't ask me why they came up with such a name... Koreans still baffle me sometimes :D The standard explanation is that it means that 'to be warped into a labyrinth'. Interestingly, some have translated Mirotic to mean 'spell'... as in a witch's spell... etc. The song is mainly about my honeys singing about how people are so into them... so true... YES... I've fallen for you, I want you, and I've got you under my skin... hehe!
I've preordered the beautiful album, version B. Comes with a DVD. I'm having 2nd thoughts... should I have gotten the photobook version? I mean... books last forever, and DVDs will die someday... hmmm... But where will I keep the book? Gaaahhh... :P Here's extra info...
Version A: CD + Photobook
01 . 주문(MIROTIC)
02 . Wrong Number
03 . 노을..바라보다
04 . CRAZY LOVE
05 . HEY!(Don't bring me down)
06 . 넌 나의 노래
07 . 무지개
08 . 낙원
09 . 악녀(Are you A Good girl?)
10 . Flower Lady
11 . 잊혀진계절
12 . love in the Ice
Version B: CD + DVD
CD
01 . 주문(MIROTIC)
02 . Wrong Number
03 . 노을..바라보다
04 . CRAZY LOVE
05 . HEY!(Don't bring me down)
06 . 넌 나의 노래
07 . 무지개
08 . 낙원
09 . 악녀(Are you A Good girl?)
10 . Flower Lady
DVD
The 4th Album Surprise Project – Directed by TVXQ! <20080830-20080831 a-nation ’08 Tokyo Story>
01 . Directed by HERO (Interviewee : U-Know)
02 . Directed by U-Know (Interviewee : MAX) ’
03 . Directed by MAX (Interviewee : Xiah) ’
04 . Directed by Xiah (Interviewee : Micky)
05 . Directed by Micky (Interviewee : HERO)
06 . Directed by TVXQ! – Talk about ‘MIROTIC’
07 . Directed by TVXQ! – Surprise Project
Thursday, September 11, 2008
I'm moving on...
I hit the bottom yesterday. I wanted to just quit everything here and go home. What will I do when I get home? I thought about it, and felt that I’d very much like to just stay home and accompany my mother day-in, day-out. What will I do for income? I don’t wanna work :P
Yes… it’s very absurd. I know it’s absurd… but this was what my demented mind was egging me on to do yesterday.
“Go home…” the voice whispered. “Go home…”
I called my father and cried for 40 over minutes, trying to get his blessing to follow that voice. Of course he said that I shouldn’t, and if I wanted to… I should only do it maybe 10 years down the road. Then he proceeded to tell me all the hardships he’d been through long ago, and even now. The stories didn’t lift my spirit… but they made me think of the kind of life my father had led and how he had come to where he was today. Life got better for him… and now I hope life will get better for me.
I calmed down by noon yesterday. I realized being able to interact with people made me happier. I need people to talk to. I need to be able to tell them about me. A bit self-centered, I know… but isn’t that how it always is? When you see a friend, you’d want to tell them what has been happening to you, and of course listen to what has been happening to them? I’m going to try harder to find people to talk to… I need more friends :P
Yesterday, I finally got over my phobia of eating mixed rice. I dunno how I got it in the first place, but I was dreading it every time I thought of dinner. I don’t anymore… and neither am I dreading lunch time. I’ll need to work on keeping this mood in check. I’d been dreading all mealtimes since I came back to Singapore because I kept telling myself the food here sucked and I eat the same shit every day :P I’m better now… and I’m reminding myself that I should eat to survive, and not think so much about what I’m eating. It’s not like I’m eating poo… I bought a loaf of bread and I’ll munch whenever I feel hungry. I had 3 slices in a span of 3 hours after lunch yesterday. Am I gonna get fat? :P Hope not… I just lost weight… from 55-56 to 53.5. I should be rejoicing and loving the fact that I’m taking the bus and MRT. It has helped me lose weight :P
Mornings are especially hard for me. I’ll admit that it’s partly laziness which prompts me to use my pain – be it minor or major – to lie an extra minute, or to be tempted not to go to work. I need to work on encouraging myself to just get up and go… I suppose making sure that I have quality sleep will help. I get into bed around 10 these days… and fall asleep by 11. And sometimes… I just can’t bear to leave my sleeping Geof. We have so little time together each day. I miss the days in Melaka where we could go home together, and on weekends… just hang out and laze around. Here… we have laundry to think of… and sometimes I have to get home alone :P No matter… I’m pushing him to accompany me home these days. Or when he’s home… I make him shower early so that we can just lounge around and talk before we go to bed :D
“You’re not imperfect,” my dad told me on the phone yesterday.
I’m not perfect either… I may be just a little less than perfect :P But I suppose my life is almost perfect. I have someone who loves me no matter what I become, no matter what I am, and I know that I am capable… I have the brains to do my job well. Why did I have to worry? I’ve always wanted to be perfect… so maybe I wanted too much. But now I know that I am good enough. I’m going to remind myself each day that I am good at what I do. If people gave me the chance… it would be because they had a least a little faith in me… they know I can do it. Time will tell... I CAN DO IT!!!
I’m planning to take a music production course early next year… and if this is really what I like and what I wanna do… I’m gonna take more courses, work on improving myself… while I continue with my current job. Then maybe by the time I settle down and have kids… I can do my music work freelance, or part time… from home :D My kinda life… :D
If you notice… I’m trying to use a lot of positive words now. I keep emphasizing that I am better, I am happier, I am getting healthier… this is how I motivated myself yesterday and this morning. I repeat these affirmations to myself and I am trying to program them into my brain.
I am happy… I am healthy… I am strong… I am capable…
As long as I keep in the right mindset, I will believe in these and I will move forward. I wrote myself a little mantra / affirmation thingie and pasted it right in front of me at my desk. I’d like to share it with everyone who is reading… in case you ever need to be reminded that you have a good life, just like I do… but you just can’t see it in your moments of darkness. Print it out if you like… change the words so that they will speak more specifically to you. I have amended it a few times... whenever I think of a word that would help me reaffirm the thought better. Share this with people you think will need this to help them through their day, or maybe just to remind them how good their life is. Some of the words you may have seen in many of those forwarded emails with the same purpose… reminding you of your good fortunes… some of the words are my own. Make this your own… and let it motivate you to move forward.
(can't upload it at work... will do it at home. This is the text version.)
Yes… it’s very absurd. I know it’s absurd… but this was what my demented mind was egging me on to do yesterday.
“Go home…” the voice whispered. “Go home…”
I called my father and cried for 40 over minutes, trying to get his blessing to follow that voice. Of course he said that I shouldn’t, and if I wanted to… I should only do it maybe 10 years down the road. Then he proceeded to tell me all the hardships he’d been through long ago, and even now. The stories didn’t lift my spirit… but they made me think of the kind of life my father had led and how he had come to where he was today. Life got better for him… and now I hope life will get better for me.
I calmed down by noon yesterday. I realized being able to interact with people made me happier. I need people to talk to. I need to be able to tell them about me. A bit self-centered, I know… but isn’t that how it always is? When you see a friend, you’d want to tell them what has been happening to you, and of course listen to what has been happening to them? I’m going to try harder to find people to talk to… I need more friends :P
Yesterday, I finally got over my phobia of eating mixed rice. I dunno how I got it in the first place, but I was dreading it every time I thought of dinner. I don’t anymore… and neither am I dreading lunch time. I’ll need to work on keeping this mood in check. I’d been dreading all mealtimes since I came back to Singapore because I kept telling myself the food here sucked and I eat the same shit every day :P I’m better now… and I’m reminding myself that I should eat to survive, and not think so much about what I’m eating. It’s not like I’m eating poo… I bought a loaf of bread and I’ll munch whenever I feel hungry. I had 3 slices in a span of 3 hours after lunch yesterday. Am I gonna get fat? :P Hope not… I just lost weight… from 55-56 to 53.5. I should be rejoicing and loving the fact that I’m taking the bus and MRT. It has helped me lose weight :P
Mornings are especially hard for me. I’ll admit that it’s partly laziness which prompts me to use my pain – be it minor or major – to lie an extra minute, or to be tempted not to go to work. I need to work on encouraging myself to just get up and go… I suppose making sure that I have quality sleep will help. I get into bed around 10 these days… and fall asleep by 11. And sometimes… I just can’t bear to leave my sleeping Geof. We have so little time together each day. I miss the days in Melaka where we could go home together, and on weekends… just hang out and laze around. Here… we have laundry to think of… and sometimes I have to get home alone :P No matter… I’m pushing him to accompany me home these days. Or when he’s home… I make him shower early so that we can just lounge around and talk before we go to bed :D
“You’re not imperfect,” my dad told me on the phone yesterday.
I’m not perfect either… I may be just a little less than perfect :P But I suppose my life is almost perfect. I have someone who loves me no matter what I become, no matter what I am, and I know that I am capable… I have the brains to do my job well. Why did I have to worry? I’ve always wanted to be perfect… so maybe I wanted too much. But now I know that I am good enough. I’m going to remind myself each day that I am good at what I do. If people gave me the chance… it would be because they had a least a little faith in me… they know I can do it. Time will tell... I CAN DO IT!!!
I’m planning to take a music production course early next year… and if this is really what I like and what I wanna do… I’m gonna take more courses, work on improving myself… while I continue with my current job. Then maybe by the time I settle down and have kids… I can do my music work freelance, or part time… from home :D My kinda life… :D
If you notice… I’m trying to use a lot of positive words now. I keep emphasizing that I am better, I am happier, I am getting healthier… this is how I motivated myself yesterday and this morning. I repeat these affirmations to myself and I am trying to program them into my brain.
I am happy… I am healthy… I am strong… I am capable…
As long as I keep in the right mindset, I will believe in these and I will move forward. I wrote myself a little mantra / affirmation thingie and pasted it right in front of me at my desk. I’d like to share it with everyone who is reading… in case you ever need to be reminded that you have a good life, just like I do… but you just can’t see it in your moments of darkness. Print it out if you like… change the words so that they will speak more specifically to you. I have amended it a few times... whenever I think of a word that would help me reaffirm the thought better. Share this with people you think will need this to help them through their day, or maybe just to remind them how good their life is. Some of the words you may have seen in many of those forwarded emails with the same purpose… reminding you of your good fortunes… some of the words are my own. Make this your own… and let it motivate you to move forward.
(can't upload it at work... will do it at home. This is the text version.)
SMILE…
SOMEONE IS THINKING ABOUT YOU
LAUGH…
YOU GET HAPPIER EVERY SECOND YOU DO IT
SPEAK…
SO THAT OTHERS WILL GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER
TAKE CARE…
LOVE YOURSELF, CARE FOR YOURSELF… SO THAT YOU WILL KEEP GROWING STRONGER, HEALTHIER AND HAPPIER
LOOK FORWARD…
YOUR LIFE IS GETTING BETTER EACH DAY
MOVE FORWARD...
YOU HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO WANT TO SEE YOU SUCCEED
REMEMBER…
YOU HAVE SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU AND BELIEVES IN YOU… NO MATTER WHAT
I’m moving forward now… I’m not going to talk about how difficult the road may be or think about how I’m going to keep doing this each day. I will deal with it as each day comes, and I will remind myself…
Look forward… move forward… your life is getting better… and you have people who love you.
I hope the next time I blog… I will be sane again :D No… I should say… the next time I blog… I will be able to tell you how I became sane again ;)
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Why?
I would say that I have no time to blog. But in actual fact, I have no words to describe my life now. That is why I've not been blogging.
I left Melaka for Singapore, thinking that I could finally chase my dreams and lead a life that was worthwhile and fulfilling. I was wrong. I could... of course I could... you can too, but my mind is not strong enough for all this.
I cannot get used to living here. For one... living away from home is horrible. I miss my room. I miss the familiar convenience of Melaka. No matter how shiny and glittery Singapore is, it cannot compare to my home. I miss space. I miss simplicity. I miss the good things in a small town. I miss my old life.
Before I came, the bigger motivation was to be with Geof. I couldn't stand living apart anymore, and I told myself that it would be better for us to be together. What's more... I could pursue my interests in Singapore; music, dance... whatever it is I wanted to study. What I'd forgotten was that moving out here meant taking care of myself, and taking care of myself meant that I had less energy to pursue my interests.
GASTRITIS... the biggest hinderance in my life. My weak mind had given in to this illness. What started as an illness caused by irregular meals has become a condition that has now dictated my life. I am bloated all day. I wake up every morning in pain because of hunger. Nothing placates my stomach. Whatever I ate feels like nothing. Before I sat down to write this, I'd eaten a bowl of porridge. It felt as if I'd just drank a cup of water. Nothing more.
I've given up so many foods... given up my life... I loved eating, and I still do, but these days, I lose my appetite because I am reminded of all the things I should not eat, and all the things that I miss from back home. I worry myself sick about everything I put in my mouth... wondering how it will affect me the next morning. Sometimes I wish I could say "To hell with this..." and eat a bowl of curry. Sometimes I just wish I'd die... then I wouldn't have to torture myself like this anymore. But is it worth dying just because I cannot eat curry, nasi lemak, fried foods... basically all the good stuff other than plain old noodles in soup?
I'm tired. I had been sleepless the past weeks, and the doctor tells me that my lack of sleep is affecting my immune system. That's why I'd been feeling cold every night... I go to bed wearing 2 shirts, long pants and thick socks. The air conditioner is NOT turned on. I'm sleeping a little better now, since I saw the doctor, but once I fix something, my mind comes up with something else for me to fret about.
I hate going to work. I don't have colleagues I can yak to all day. We eat the same boring shit for lunch, and everyone at the office is just so... quiet... I think people actually think that I'm a reserved person at work... I am not myself... I want to be myself. I want to look forward to going to work because I will have a good time. But my sister said "Who likes going to work?" I am pretty sure the people who do like their work would tell you that it makes you feel different... and that it's so much more rewarding to have a happy work environment.
Geof asked me... so are you giving up now? Are you giving up on yourself? Do you just want to go home since this is obviously not working out? I'm not giving up, and I don't want to just go home because I had a reason to be here. I wanted a different life... for 1 year, 2 years or 3 years... I want to live that life...
But where will I find the strength now? Where will I find the will to move forward? Am I letting my self-pity get the better of me?
I left Melaka for Singapore, thinking that I could finally chase my dreams and lead a life that was worthwhile and fulfilling. I was wrong. I could... of course I could... you can too, but my mind is not strong enough for all this.
I cannot get used to living here. For one... living away from home is horrible. I miss my room. I miss the familiar convenience of Melaka. No matter how shiny and glittery Singapore is, it cannot compare to my home. I miss space. I miss simplicity. I miss the good things in a small town. I miss my old life.
Before I came, the bigger motivation was to be with Geof. I couldn't stand living apart anymore, and I told myself that it would be better for us to be together. What's more... I could pursue my interests in Singapore; music, dance... whatever it is I wanted to study. What I'd forgotten was that moving out here meant taking care of myself, and taking care of myself meant that I had less energy to pursue my interests.
GASTRITIS... the biggest hinderance in my life. My weak mind had given in to this illness. What started as an illness caused by irregular meals has become a condition that has now dictated my life. I am bloated all day. I wake up every morning in pain because of hunger. Nothing placates my stomach. Whatever I ate feels like nothing. Before I sat down to write this, I'd eaten a bowl of porridge. It felt as if I'd just drank a cup of water. Nothing more.
I've given up so many foods... given up my life... I loved eating, and I still do, but these days, I lose my appetite because I am reminded of all the things I should not eat, and all the things that I miss from back home. I worry myself sick about everything I put in my mouth... wondering how it will affect me the next morning. Sometimes I wish I could say "To hell with this..." and eat a bowl of curry. Sometimes I just wish I'd die... then I wouldn't have to torture myself like this anymore. But is it worth dying just because I cannot eat curry, nasi lemak, fried foods... basically all the good stuff other than plain old noodles in soup?
I'm tired. I had been sleepless the past weeks, and the doctor tells me that my lack of sleep is affecting my immune system. That's why I'd been feeling cold every night... I go to bed wearing 2 shirts, long pants and thick socks. The air conditioner is NOT turned on. I'm sleeping a little better now, since I saw the doctor, but once I fix something, my mind comes up with something else for me to fret about.
I hate going to work. I don't have colleagues I can yak to all day. We eat the same boring shit for lunch, and everyone at the office is just so... quiet... I think people actually think that I'm a reserved person at work... I am not myself... I want to be myself. I want to look forward to going to work because I will have a good time. But my sister said "Who likes going to work?" I am pretty sure the people who do like their work would tell you that it makes you feel different... and that it's so much more rewarding to have a happy work environment.
Geof asked me... so are you giving up now? Are you giving up on yourself? Do you just want to go home since this is obviously not working out? I'm not giving up, and I don't want to just go home because I had a reason to be here. I wanted a different life... for 1 year, 2 years or 3 years... I want to live that life...
But where will I find the strength now? Where will I find the will to move forward? Am I letting my self-pity get the better of me?
Saturday, August 23, 2008
This is CRACK... Sheeeaaattt!!!
Once in awhile, I'd blog about the music that I'm into, but this is becoming ridiculous. This song has got me hooked... it's worse than being addicted to crack. It fills my mind and just keeps running in my head. Then it just makes me wanna dance, or immerse myself in all the emotions and heartbreak it's singing about.
Here are 3 versions of my new favourite song by Big Bang, Day by Day (하루하루). For those who don't like R&B-ish dance music... sorry la... this is my fix :P
I am so, so mesmerized by TOP+G-Dragon's combo vocals. For those who dunno which is which... TOP is the sinisterly sexy guy, and G-Dragon is the pretty boy protagonist who got dumped. Take note @ 2:20... the music and vocal build up is mind-blowing!!!
Original Version
For those who wanna just enjoy watching the original.
Translated Version
For those who need to know what it's about.
MV Plot Reinterpreted Version
For those with a wicked sense of humour ^_^
Here are 3 versions of my new favourite song by Big Bang, Day by Day (하루하루). For those who don't like R&B-ish dance music... sorry la... this is my fix :P
I am so, so mesmerized by TOP+G-Dragon's combo vocals. For those who dunno which is which... TOP is the sinisterly sexy guy, and G-Dragon is the pretty boy protagonist who got dumped. Take note @ 2:20... the music and vocal build up is mind-blowing!!!
Original Version
For those who wanna just enjoy watching the original.
Translated Version
For those who need to know what it's about.
MV Plot Reinterpreted Version
For those with a wicked sense of humour ^_^
Sunday, July 27, 2008
FIND...
I know I haven't been posting much lately... lots of happening, I just haven't had the mind to condense it in writing yet... so... since I've not been singing for sometime, and I'd found a new song to love... bear with my singing... haha!
Friday, May 23, 2008
Halelujah... ^_^
My boyfriend just said some very enlightening words to me about 10-20 minutes ago...
"Muslims need to go to Mecca once in their lives. EPL fans need to go to UK once in their lives. You need to go to Korea (South Korea) at least once in your life..."
He really hit the nail in the head... hahaha! So... I guess... I should start saving... but I really don't know when I'll be going :P Anyone wanna come along? But be warned... I don't exactly backpack i.e. I will not sleep in seedy places cos I need a nice clean room to survive... and I don't do tours... unless we tour first and extend our stay. If you're expecting to go to South Korea to see where they filmed Winter Sonata, Jewel in the Palace or Goong... not on my trip :P
But I wouldn't mind joining the groupies outside the TV or radio stations... hehehe~!
"Muslims need to go to Mecca once in their lives. EPL fans need to go to UK once in their lives. You need to go to Korea (South Korea) at least once in your life..."
He really hit the nail in the head... hahaha! So... I guess... I should start saving... but I really don't know when I'll be going :P Anyone wanna come along? But be warned... I don't exactly backpack i.e. I will not sleep in seedy places cos I need a nice clean room to survive... and I don't do tours... unless we tour first and extend our stay. If you're expecting to go to South Korea to see where they filmed Winter Sonata, Jewel in the Palace or Goong... not on my trip :P
But I wouldn't mind joining the groupies outside the TV or radio stations... hehehe~!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Facebook Addiction...
Yes... this is me being lazy again. I'm not really blogging... but I've gotten into a habit of posting interesting vids I find :) This particular one I found today was about Facebook addiction; an ailment that I suspect is becoming a plague among me and my real friends (not my Facebook friends). Hehe! :P
Facebook Addiction
Facebook Addiction
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